This.

 Lately, I have been feeling stuck. That is partly because I am stuck. I don't get to leave this house very often because I have to take care of the baby and also because I can't go out alone.

But I am also stuck in another way.

God has given me this beautiful dream and vision for my ministry. He has given me this huge hope that the hearts and lives of the orphaned in spirit are going to be drastically changed. That the people whom others turn the other direction and run from are going to be welcomed with open arms into the kingdom of heaven. That the people running orphanages in such a horrible, hurtful way are going to be transformed and running orphanages that are centered around Christ and abounding in love and hope.

I have this crazy, good, amazing vision. But I don't even know where to begin. I don't know how to reach these people. I don't even know where to find these people. I know they are all over Haiti but I don't know where. I don't know what to say to begin forming relationships. I don't know how any of this is going to come about. I just know that it will. I know that the Lord has given me this dream. And I know that I just have to wait on Him for more direction. It is frustrating and I am trying to be patient. But His timing is so much better than my own. And His ways are so much higher. So perfect and so wonderful.

I have so many questions. I have so many blank pages. I have so many fears and so many doubts. But I have a God who is ready to answer those questions, in HIS TIMING. I have a God who has already written on those blank pages. I have a God who is so much bigger than every single one of my fears and every single one of my doubts.